After hurting my back by finishing half of Fer’s work, I finally can relax for a while. Fer sis now continuing the work and played Marcell on the comp. Firasat. Yumma’s right, I should re-evaluate my feelings for Jedi. How is it going? I started to think it as a wrong thing when every time you heard mellow songs or tunes; you link it to a particular person. It’s been more than 2 years Indira. Do you think it’s still fair to wait and holding on to something that you know … it won’t come? Am I just deceiving myself, or is it what you called faith?

:: A Thousand Miles // Vanessa Carlton ::

This kind of philosophy has been swimming in our minds all these times. And … [my cell phone ring, Marisa asking me to join her and Arga swimming], and let’s be frank to ourselves in a second. Do you really think the answers are already yours? Do you at least have the grip of the answers’ edge? Do you know the answers? We feel stupid for feeling lost when we’re faced in this situation. Trying so bloody hard to get by. But when the situations are covered with nice events, great experiences, sweet happy coating, we then forgot about it. Without even come out with a slightest urge to look and find out all about it. So typical.

“Those who has wisdom, can judge all things, without even him being judged by others.”

What a heaven … to be able to have wisdom and let Him answer all those f***ing questions!!

:: Selepas Kau Pergi // Laluna ::

Suddenly, I feel like wanna make a list of people and things that I miss so much:

1. My mom: she’s around all right, but there’s something in her that’s not currently there. She’s easily offended lately. It made her spit out pretty harsh breaking words :(
2. My dad: I miss him since the day I was born.

[Eating ice cream chills out my mind a lil bit]

3. Abbie: she’s acting pretty awful lately. Got angry so fast, cried too hard.
4. Jedi: for every single reason there is
5. The stars: looking at them makes me feel at home.. Then where is my real home actually?
6. The little prince: for every single reason there is
7. The sunset: I need you to make me feel that I’m not alone
8. Cozy couch: I need you to rest myself from all those heavy burdens
9. A hug: so I can feel loved
10. Jesus: so I can rest my cares, just miss Him for all of the reasons that I cant even think of
11. Singing: cant live without it.